Long and difficult waiting period

I'm sorry guys, I've took a long time to write something... but truly, there is NOTHING to write, because nothing has occured yet.

Every day is happening the same... NOTHING. We are not moving forward. all paperwork has been sent to Russia, and it has been translated... but we are still waiting for news. We don't know if we are registered at the region of Transbaikal Krai. We don't know how many people we have ahead of us.
We don't have any idea about the time schedule to have the assignation of our little child, we don't have any idea about the time schedule to do the first trip

When we started in this long way, we knew that it might be long and hard... but never thought it would be so, so, so dificult...
And we say "dificult" not for the complexity of the process in general... we say "dificult" for the dificulty to keep patience... because sometimes I would just shout and see if everything goes a little bit quicker !!!

Everybody thinks that it should be easy to overtake this situation, only doing the same things you are doing everyday and not thinking at all in this process... Wow it is sooo easy isn't it ??

I don't think so... is not as easy as it sounds... To do this we should be in a "automatic" mode... as a robot... wake up , peep, peep, peep... make up, take coffee,  take a car... peep, peep, peep...  go to work... peep, peep, peep... doing your best at your job,  lunch time, work a little bit more... peep, peep, peep... come back home... tv time, go to sleep...

The problem is when you are in an adoption process you NEVER get into that state, there are too many questions... too many fears... too many hopes placed in a call, or an e-mail... and this makes you to be in a constant state of impatience.

Sometimes you can "switch off", (you forget about writting the blog, you forget about studying russian...) but this period doesn't takes more than two or three days... maybe a week... and come back to the "real world" with more questions, fears and getting impatient ones again.

So... here we are, waiting for news that brings us closer to our son.

To my son: My little baby... don't forget to look where the sun sets, because some day you will see us appearing. That day we'll carry you home for ever, and nothing can separate you from us anymore !!